instincts

            The tumult of the busy city, the smoke, the road. Surely, I will miss a lot of things in this world. As I try to comprehend what’s going to happen in the next months, I mean, in my last few days, I’ve realized that I’ve squandered my precious time in such a nonsense. Sooner or later, I’ll be gone with the wind. I’ll be seeing myself like a flower that quickly fades, or like a snow that slowly melts. And yes, in the wink of an eye, I’ll be gone forever. In the end, it will be as if I never existed in this world.

I opened my eyes and hysterically gazed at the mirror. Who’s this? Is this for real? I caressed my hair. Oh my! This is… this is my hair! Look! I have a beautiful hair as black as the midnight sky! I was amazed for a moment, and then I touched my arms. Hey! This is flesh! I can’t believe it! And as I lay a hand on my chest, I can feel my heart beating. Lab dub… lab dub… I’m human, ain’t I? Yes, I am human. Suddenly, I remembered my dream. I saw a figure of a man, but I cannot see his face because of the blinding light that covered him. We were discussing about some matters, I don’t know, I forgot. The only thing that I can recall is my stay here on this earth.

Wait… Why do I need to be in here? Whoa! If I’m not mistaken, this is just an erroneous perception of the reality…

But, but… arggh! The clock, something’s up in the clock. I can’t tell what really it is; all I know is that it’s quarter after one in the afternoon. No big deal.

(long pause) I can feel something… (sighs) I can sense it. Thoughts are clouding up my mind--- light and dark, yin and yang, balance… life and death… change. My instincts… It has something to do with my instincts and I’m’ pretty sure I’m going to make good use of it in whatsoever purpose it may serve.